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I look at you and see the colors of your heartbeat.
I listen and I hear your bitter life.
I feel your hope and taste your tears,
I’m silent, diving in your silver path…
I lure your demons, I invite them in my lake of shame,
still praying for the day we finally escape.
I sense another storm, embraced by my own sadness
and desperately reach out for his touch this one last time.
I asked to be forgiven, so I was.
For long I paid this lonesome price.
And you’ll be too, my dearest friend,
so much of ancient goodness you have given.
Now take my hand and let us chase the hazy wind,
let’s fall into the deepest autumn forest and forget ourselves in secret whims,
let’s love each other like we’ve never been in love before, ignoring of this blameful distant chatter.
The crowds, the cross, this same old witch-hunt,
unnecessary complications of a simple magic-wish.
Let’s open up, so cosmically and so freely, let’s share our worlds and be all one.
Let’s be together, hold each other honestly and dearly and surrender to the higher spirit than the self.
I look at you and feel your freedom,
I touch your crescent-coloured liberty at heart,
I praise the crystal shimmer in your faithful eyes,
I kiss the guardian wings upon your shoulders
and lift with them into the skies.
I hold the modest breath within my palms and share your calming manner,
I hold on, raise much further just to see the truth –
this long averted love submission has been always more than blessing in disguise.
So now I know, it’s obvious to me –
I love you, always have and always will.

~Kass

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The Universe is speaking to me through the elements.
The air is whispering aroma chills,
providing my lungs taste the sweetness of another spring.
I float and dive into an endless ocean of my own,
within my veins. Surpassed my tears.
I drown sometimes and keep forgetting how to swim,
but then awake again and realize I can still surface,
and balance my own waves. And smother my own fears.
My feet are sounds like hitting thunder,
connected firmly to the ground,
my being bound so deeply to my mother.
My heartbeat echoing her dreams of future so profound.
*
As thunder hits the ear, as light turns present
and matter starts appearing,
I learn and know about my senses,
I grow, I learn and love myself and understand my feelings,
the fluids, air within my body,
my bones feel heavy, my time gets needed.
And all the breaths I breathed,
and all the drops I drank,
and all the steps I’ve taken, getting further, more awake,
and all the vital lessons
have led me to myself
have led me to this search,
and this realization.
*
Throughout my mind I search for something.
I search for something that has ceased appearing,
For something that so stubbornly avoids the eye,
For the elusive shadow, hidden in the sky.
The other side.
I’m searching for the one,
I’m searching for my soul, for my own magic.
The one the mirrors could not show.
The shadows are the walls themselves.
The perfect riddle and a paradox the mind can’t sense.
The silence of the floating water deep inside my every cell.
The salty taste of my own sweat, the absence of all gravity in fleeting dance.
Unraveling the time, and searching for a way
to find ourselves, to feel our souls.
To know.
And peacefully escape.
*
We all just want to find the magic.
We all just need for someone to translate.
Our feelings, our emotions. And the elements.
Providing meaning to the self.
(So simple it’s insane.)
*
And suddenly – a spark,
A flame…
A tortured sign,
A fire burning in the mind.
A tool, divine, beyond all knowledge.
Technology and wars, development, civilization…
An impulse, flowing electricity, the element to finish and begin it all…
The fire needle that supports all life.
And suddenly a reason.
And suddenly a start.
A sparkle, giving us all kinds of knowledge,
Reminding of an endless freedom,
Expanding into different worlds.
The fire.
And the magic has begun…

***
And suddenly it’s all unreal,
dream worlds unraveling before my senses,
combining all the elements in hidden strengths.
And suddenly my sight, my hearing – mended,
translated into wisdom, formerly to me unknown,
providing me with higher vision – all matter just pretended,
just a game that I define,
my mind – imploding fireworks,
colliding colors through my eyes,
the elements have given to me all that’s mine.

And all is magic.
All is life.

~Love,
Kass

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Another shift… Majestic thunder ⚡.
*
And the almighty Gods are now within me.
They’ve given me their power,
and I can feel the strength is rising.
And I am capable of mercy.
And I am capable of loving.
But most importantly, I am now capable of choosing.
And I will choose for myself and all beings in this realm and any other.
And I will choose to find the peace within my mind.
And it will catch up with the heart.
And I will be all that I am and that I could be
and acknowledge that the power’s hiding in the here-and-now.
And I’ll respect that all I am, I was or ever will be, is situated in the present moment.
And I will trust this simplest knowledge wisely, for it was shared with me with purpose.
*
And I will remain.
*
The shift is ours to take care of.
Our lives are given to us to be liven.
All that is on the outside will obey the will within, and follow it as every shadow ever has or ever will be.
And all it takes for us is keep believin‘.
*
For this time we have shaped the shift and it is ours now to live in. It is ours now to love.
We are all one – one consciousness, one thought, one single cell. One power.
We are the fire needle, that still burns inside.
You are all me, I am all you, and we’re all here. We have decided to be.
And for as long as we do want it, it’s our will.
So let it be!
Amen!
*
The power of all almighty is within, if we can share it. If we allow ourselves to shine.
If we can share and love and know to trust.
If we can wish to all of us almighty rising. All together. All as one.
If we can be and hope and dare to live on in the present moment, here and now.
If we can feel the happiness within,
if we can simply let it flow.
My inner Gods are smiling.
And whispering to me we do all have all powers.
We all should know one thing.
*
All powers have been given to us by our choice,
a choice to be here, share the shift.
All powers could as well be taken, the second we decide to swift.
To want, be greedy, to abuse another.
To lie or hate or do things hurtful.
To be selfish, or think ugly, to misuse the power.
It is a choice and nothing more.
It’s a robbery of good.
A sign of unfulfillment,
endangering oneself and all the others.
*
For we’re all one, a single being.
A single cell, a single impulse
[even though so far it seems quite big (and somewhat bangy) ]
A single body, that inhabits just a single thought, a single present,
given by and to a single God, a single whole.
A code, a single key we keep within our hearts,
a clockwork puzzle for the simple mind.
*
A matter that’s beyond illusion.
*
A boat that needs no sailor, for it is the sea itself.
A sparkle of reality we choose to see, yet disbelieve and hope to understand.
And now’s the time, the shift’s got further.
The matter is beyond control.
We feel and know, we learn to trust,
we stopped to need and want to buy.
We hope to see, we share belief.
We are and will remain all one.
We care, we do, we still exist,
the prayers for a savior paid off.
We’re here, we’re all almighty,
and all it takes is trust our hearts.
We know, we learned so long how to forget,
forgive our pasts and look beyond.
And love, that’s all.
That’s all there is and was and ever will be.
The essence of all being. The essence as a whole.
All reason, all our hopes and dreams have led us to it.
The most ultimate and longer hidden truth.
*
It’s love. The life. The answer to all questions. And indeed the question mark itself.
It’s love. The power that’s within us, the almighty Gods as well.
It’s love. What’s giving life and what can kill us. There is nothing real but this.
It’s love. It’s making us believe and search and know. It’s all the reasons to remain. It’s what we are and where we’re going. It’s who we trust and what we think. It’s what we hope for understanding, it’s the universe‘ own being.
*
It’s love. And it’s been spreading. We’re emitting it unknowingly by heart.
It’s doubling its strength each time we share it,
and has been gathering it’s force so far.
Preparing us for war.
Providing us with hope.
Attending our journey.
Arriving at our heart.
And giving us the present.
And all we need to do is to be thankful for the most amazing power, for this most almighty God, for this treasure in my chest. For the answer to all puzzles.
*
I love you Love. And thank you for all being.
And thank you for these powers we all share.
And thank you for my God, my Love.
And thank you for believing.

I love you,
Here-and-now.
~Jade

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A war, a prison, a past life.
Some memories of love and you,
so many times we’ve been here.

A mountain, a big tree, the valley.
I’ve missed you many times before.
Strong feelings and you taught me loneliness each time,
I had to see it coming in this life again.

Our memories might differ, yet I know…
Until I learn to love you, I’m not going,
the eternity’s not ours.
But the roles have changed,
(I used to be a Goddess, now I hardly flicker.)
I have turned much weaker,
as of you – more powerful than ever.

Chances are the energy’s off balance,
the more you wait, the more I want you.
The more I’m sending to you all my thoughts and life and prayers.
The more your power over me’s prevailing.

The sooner I have realized and stopped it,
the better I will do prevent another plague.
A memory from not so distant future –
my soul collided into millions of crickets…

World hunger and a war. No reason.
But my love for you is strong my dear.

It used to take us seconds and we knew it lasted for a lifetime.
And now instead it takes us both a lifetime to be certain, both unhappy,
both untrusted.
And all we do is love each other merely for a second.
Right before we fall securely back into the doubt of darkness.

And we feel eternity is fading.
And we know each time we played eternal love for just some shallow dimes
and innocent regrets.

And you know I’ll always love you.
But your always is too late this time, you played it.
Time and time and time again…
And I have moved on, love, and I will wait no longer.

~jade

A different kind of love,
a different kind of safety,
a different kind of feeling and protection
of my broken heart.
A different kind of knowledge of my ways and who I am,
a different vision of my deepest self.
I’ve never been so grateful and I’ve never felt so loved.
I never really knew someone so well that I could trust them.
You made me change in ways I never had imagined
by rescuing me from myself a thousand times.
You made me realize the things that mattered,
you brought to me a gate of light
then took my hand and walked me through it.
I love you for the way you smile, mysteriously but sincere.
I love you for the way when I’m with you these flowers grow
in places where I used to let just shadows dance.
I love you for your patience and your help and for the way you simply are.
I love you for the way you soothe my aching heart.
A different kind of love is what I feel for you.
A love I’ve never felt before.
A love that’s good for me and not just hurtful.
A love that finally could last.
My handsome knight, my savior and my beyond imagination.
My truth in these deceitful times.
My promise is to you – I will not let you down,
As long as you can have me by your side, I’ll be there.

~jade

I hadn’t noticed how I’ve fallen into loving you so deeply,
I honestly did notexpect it.
Your touch is soothing me like nothing else,
To see your eyes is something I am eagerly awaiting
And when you smile, you brighten up my time.
Your calmness and your wisdom,
Your patience with me takes me further.
Your healing energy is making me believe again.
Angelic realms are furthermore revealing.

I love to sense your rainbow glow just fill the room,
I love the kind of safety that I feel when you embrace me,
I love the lack of worries and of nervousness in me while in your presence,
I love the way you can respond to me and let my fears just vanish.
I love the softness in your voice and your ability to listen.
I love that for the first time I believe this need not have an ending.
And I most certainly do not feel like escaping.
The images of freedom, the way we need no speaking.
The timelessness, with you I’m always,
here and now.

The flow between our hands with every single touch.
The happiness, the balance and the perfect timing,
The way that you remind me of a long forgotten mystery.
And how you make me feel protected,
As a flower lying in the steady roots beneath a tree.

I love our conversations, the feeling that I can confide and trust in you.
The way you make me feel like I can stand up
And simply look my fears into the eye.
And how with you I am accepting
Of everything the way it is and nothing else.
The way you make me feel my dreams are real.

I love how brilliant you are.
I didn’t tell you this, a something I had noticed.
As we were walking in the church the other day, a woman saw your halo and she smiled, she seemed as well so fascinated.
I love how brilliant you are.

I love how you can shine much brighter than a star.
A silver sun is whispering right through your eyes.
I love how you can make me feel so warm and safe within each storm.
By holding me so tight and let me know your heart for mine does glow.

And thank you for your kindness and for being there whenever I have needed you.
And thank you for accepting me for who I am.
And thank you for not telling me of what to do and how, but peacefully suggesting it at times.
Just thanks for let me loving you the way I can.

~kass

There are just two states –
the time and space
or none of them,
but we always just perceive
the one of them.
And they both are real
and they both aren’t,
(so are we
in our Existence).
And we do exist in both of them,
time-space-irrelevent,
and we don’t exist in neither.
And yes, we may let go,
we may time travel even,
but we might as well just be
and look around,
while we still can.
For this one thing is certain –
we are one,
we are the Universe
and all Creation-
liquid torus
filled with time and space.
Constantly exploding and imploding in itself,
in its non-matter,
in its endless timelessness
and timeless ending.
In its Being
its the only thing that we perceive
and at the same time isn’t,
for we’re still in here and now.
We’re here to learn one thing –
that Change is constant.
So is Life and Death.

…
It is not a cycle though,
but just a Yes/No question –
are we here? Or isn’t it?
And we may now know the answer –
and we CAN now feel it –
and the answer’s both –
a Yes-and-No.
That’s always,
and it’s happening,
but has not happened.
Yet.
But now I know it.
And I can visit any time and space I want.
For both states are
and both states aren’t.
They are one.
And so are we.

…
that Change is constant.
So is Life and Death.

For this I’m planning now –
my own Eight Day Harakiri.

And if all goes well,
he says,
he’ll meet me
on the other side.
Irrelevant – I answer.
For we have already, are, and always will –
remain in touch –
that’s why I’m hearing him,
for we are both here and there.
The other state.
My Harakiri.
Why, yes, my Darling,
he replies –
his voice reminds me
of myself and all I’ve been,
but now I’m not.
it’s guiding me to all I will be.
Think of nothing,
let all go.
This Time and Space –
not all.
Perceive them both –
let go of living,
and you’ll be forever.
Ase you always have been.
Always are.