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I fell in love with fragments of your smile.
I fell in love with the warmth of your heart.
I fell in love with your every disguise.
I fell in love with the tears in your eyes.
I fell in love with the amenity between us.
And I loved you deeply.
Until the ambiguity of your feelings
was forever engraved on the tomb of my love.
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I am terrified to meet you. I am truly terrified of the silence and of the way my brain seems to block out every time I see you, and my throat freezes to protect me of shouting out those awkward words, spilling my feelings all over the floor and falling apart in your feet. Because all I ever wanted to know from you is if you would like to spend the rest of your life with me… All that I want is to know if you will let me love you in good and bad, through heaven and hell because damn it I swear to you now, and I will swear it again and at every given moment… I love you with all of my heart. I loved you since the beginning and I will love you until the end. And if you feel this way too, I promise you, there is no force that could ever bring us apart, because I will find you again in every dimension and time, and I will love you still.
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Even though you’re far away,
I can see you through the eyes
of the angels watching over you.
And I am perfectly happy
just knowing you’re asleep,
safe and calm,
in the stillness of your surroundings.
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Fear is supposed to protect me
To help me stay alive
But the fear of losing you
Feels so much like I’ve already died
Because it reminds me that
You can only lose what you had
And I never wanted to have you like this
Not in a dream.
Not as a lie.
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There are symbols and signs hidden behind every word,
every letter,
every number
or color
or face.
There is a meaning inside every song,
every door,
even the dust…
Life is a chain of interpretations
and the only quest is to discover
which are the calls of the universe
to follow your path
and which are your thoughts
provoked
by the stories fear keeps on telling you.
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I know we’re just friends and you said people are the happiest when they don’t want anything but I do. I want so much for us. So much out of this relationship. I want love and loyalty and great sex. I want to marry you, have children and spend my life with you. I want to travel the world with you, learn all about you and have a little garden with roses and cherries. And I know it won’t happen right away and there’s no way to find out if all of it will happen at all… But what if we just try it one by one? I’ll be patient, I promise.